My Mother's Day Irony

Mother's Day... A day to celebrate motherhood.  A day when all mother's celebrate the miracle of life and the miracle of pushing a giant human being out of the smallest hole in the world.  😆 The pain is so great, yet we all celebrate this miracle with pleasure.  For being a mother is the one great joy of my life and my best accomplishment.  I put all of my heart and soul into that job.  

On this day we also celebrate our mothers.  Thanking them for giving us life and loving us unconditionally.  Luke Bryan sings in his most recent song, "most mama's outta be nominated for sainthood".  Boy he's not kidding.  We all deserve a medal for sure!

Today, for me, was focused on family, friends, making memories, and the importance of spending these special moments with the ones I love.  Since the big "C" diagnosis these things are becoming more important than ever before.  You reevaluate life and realize these moments you have taken for granted in the past could be taken away from you in the blink of an eye.

I began the day early with my mom, sister, one of my nephews, my best friend and her sister, along with 100's of other people in a 5k walk/run to benefit breast cancer patients back in my home town.  My sister and I took turns pushing mom in the wheelchair, as she doesn't walk well, but wanted to participate.  Boy those hills were BIG! Or I'm outa shape.  Either way I'm whooped tonight!  But I finished my first 5K ever! Yay me! Oh yeah... and we weren't dead last... woot woot!

The first irony of the day..... This walk took us around our old neighborhood my sister and I grew up and played in for most of our childhood.   Wow, talk about memory lane.  We walked by our old house, by our old friends houses, the alley whee we rode our bikes, where we would play for hours until our parents were screaming for us to come in at dark.  It amazes me how small everything looks now.

We then had lunch as a group and went to the cemetery to visit loved ones memorials and gave them all some new flowers.  It's funny how, for me, visiting the cemetery seems to take you right back into the middle of the funeral.

Second irony associated with today...  as I celebrate mother's day today, I am mentally preparing for my next surgery in the morning.  The full hysterectomy is next.  So while celebrating mother's day today, tomorrow I will have all of the parts removed from my body that allowed me the greatest gift of all.  To be a mother. I am so very grateful for my handsome, smart amazing "little" boy.  In a way he gave me life as well.

While everyone says, oh this is not a big deal.  You don't need those parts any more anyways.  You will be happy when this is over.  And yes, they are all right, I do not need them and in reality I will not miss the fun stuff that comes along with these fabulous body parts, but somehow I feel a little sad and apprehensive about it.  I think, for myself, as I'm guessing maybe most women who have gone through breast cancer and mastectomy and then hysterectomy, I feel as if this is the last part of womanhood I have left that the "C" word is taking from me.  That somehow all of the things that make you a woman are now ALL  gone.  It is somewhat sad for me.  I get where everyone else is coming from, I mean if I still had my boobs and they wanted to take the other, I'd be doing the "No More Period" dance of joy probably.  LOL

Some ask, why are you having another major surgery so close to your last one....  Unfortunately with the positive BRCA2 gene, and after a breast cancer diagnosis, it is recommended to have the hysterectomy as soon as possible.  So here we go... tomorrow morning in for the next fun event.  As always, prayers are appreciated and will see you lovely peeps on the flip side!!  

Happy Ironic Mother's Day to all!